graduation part one.

seminary is one of those mormon things you just have to do. like how you babysit on ward temple night for free and you know it's the right thing to do but there's so many other things you could be doing. i know how it feels.

don't get me wrong. i learned a lot in seminary and made a ton of friends. and i am proud to say that i earned an a+ all four years. i'm probably going to end up being called into the general young women's presidency or something.

anyway, i was asked to speak at graduation. no big deal, really. i totally love talking in front of a bunch of kid my age who i hardly know. i'm the worst public speaker. whoever chose me to speak was receiving the wrong revelation i think.

recently, my cousin moved into my ward. it's been a huge blessing. when he moved in i really needed a good friend and who would be better than my own family? easton is seriously the best.

pictures from graduation. brooke, sydney, easton, steven, and me. we're a good looking group, if i do say so myself.

senior pictures.

class of 2012.

mormon prom.

since our school districts don't exactly have the best reputation for prom, a few stakes have put on a mormon prom. if you go with the right group, its actually really fun. this year, i got asked a week before prom. not exactly ideal, but i made it work. i was in a group with sydney and my sister, lexi. my date was chandler. he is honestly one of the most sarcastic and funny guys i'm pretty sure i've ever met. brooke was in a different group and we met up with her later. we missed her like crazy.

the girls looked so pretty. and the boys clean up nice. more picture to come.

new favorite song.

heard this on the radio. it makes me happy.

give me a cowboy. take me to georgia.

jones.

this is not some whiny post about a boy and how much he ruined my life or how much i hate him. this is about how completely perfect my life was while we were together. this boy is one that for as long as i live, i will never forget. i miss him dearly and i will always have a special place in my heart for him.

i loved him. a lot. i told him all of my secrets. my fears, my hopes and dreams, and he healed my broken heart. he healed my broken heart without knowing he was doing it. it ached for love, and he made the ache go away.

we would lay in the bed of my truck for hours. we watched the sun set and the stars twinkle. he held me in his arms and whispered sweet words that i will never forget. when he kissed me, i felt like nothing could ever go wrong. nothing else mattered. nobody else existed. it was just us. one night he held me while i cried. his arms would tighten around me when i told him i was okay. he kissed me on my forehead and my cheek and my nose. he's the only person that knows kissing me on my nose is my favorite and it sends chills up my spine, forcing me to smile and laugh. he loved it.

i miss the sound of his voice in the morning when i would call him to wake him up for his early morning class. i miss catching his eye. i miss the way he'd look at me. i miss his kisses and his hugs and everything.

losing him was the hardest thing. but because of my experience with him, i'm a better person. i loved him once and i always will.

blogger friends.

 so sydney, brooke, and i all follow this girl's blog. sydney and this girl have become very fond of one another. this girl is calea. she recently came to arizona to visit her grandparents. as luck would have it, her grandparents live like five minutes away. we spent some of the week with her while she was on spring break. she's so great.

we had a lot of fun. clearly.

i'd love to fall and see it through.

i don't wanna steal you away,
or make you change the things that you believe
i just wanna drink from the words you say,
and be everything you need
yeah, I could be so good at loving you but,
only if you told me to.