and may the odds be ever in your favor.

i'm obsessed with the hunger games series. i read all three books in one week. i also read them all before they announced they were making a movie out of them, so i like to think of myself as a die-hard fan. because i am a die-hard fan, i did see the movie at 12:01 last night. these are my thoughts on the movie:

• gale and peeta are so attractive. they were perfectly cast.
• a lot of little details were left out, and that bothered me through the whole movie.
• the cave scene was not exciting. at all. what happened to all the passionate kissing?
• i feel like the games & everything after it were really rushed.
• cato was gorgeous. that's probably not a good thing.
• i cried during the reaping.
• i liked that they showed gale in district 12 during the games. i always wanted to know how he was reacting to it all.
• i am in love with the movie. i'll buy it the day it comes out.

the question is team gale or team peeta? to be honest, i really can't decide. i was definitely team gale when i read the books. he was always true to katniss and never left her side even when it was hard for him. he stayed true to her. i didn't like peeta in the books because i never knew if he really loved katniss or not. that bothered me. and then in the third book after he got hijacked, i couldn't help but feel helpless for him. only in the third book could i tell he really loved her. but i still love gale. i really can't decide.

the next movie needs to come out soon. like, next week. i'll be at that premiere too.

p.s. i would really be happy to meet josh hutcherson in person. and liam hemsworth. i've had dibs on josh since he was in kicking and screaming. i've loved him since the beginning. i just loved liam in the last song. and his accent is so attractive. my dying wish is to meet them.

happy hunger games!

my letter to you.

dear god.

i love you. i really, truly do. you have been an important part of my life and i don't know where i would be without you. i'm so grateful for the blessings you've given me and the people you've put into my life. i love the gospel and all the experiences that i've had because i am a member of it. you know me better than i know myself, so you already know the things i'm about to tell you. but i want to share them with you anyways. and because i know you love me, i know you'll listen to them and understand.

i'm having a hard time. you and i are the only ones that know why i feel the way i do right now. i miss the simple life i used to have and i'd do anything to get that back. but i know its a trial. and its hard. i feel so alone right now and i feel like nobody is here to comfort me. i've been trampled on, led on, and kicked to the side. i need new people in my life right now. i need to meet new people. or maybe i just need a new perspective. i really just don't know. i'm so easily annoyed and i want reassurance that everything is going to be okay.

i want out. i want out of my house and away from my family. nobody wants to see me home in my rearview as much as i do. i love my family, don't get me wrong, but i need to grow on my own now. i need to enjoy my life without being held back by rules set for me when i was twelve or the excessive rules. i want to be free. i want to know what its like to be me. but i can't do that anymore. i could have done it, but then that letter changed everything. now i have to stay. i can't see my home behind me like i had previously hoped. don't get me wrong, the letter wass a complete blessing and probably will be for the rest of my life. it just wasn't what i had hoped for. just please promise to help me through it all. i know everything is going to be okay. i trust you.

lastly, bring brookie home safe. syd and i miss her dearly and her trip has caused us to go a little crazy. we hope she's having lots of fun and we can't wait to see her. keep her happy, healthy, and safe.

i love you so much. thank you for everything.

love,
me.

mtc video.

zach sent a video of the mtc to his family. when he talks in spanish, he sounds super white. i love it. haha

click here for the video.

the video is at the bottom of the page. i couldn't figure out how to copy it.

you've gotta love missionary boys.

missionary number two.

its going to be a rough couple of months. i feel like every guy i know is getting their mission call and leaving. its painful. i won't see them for two whole years. goodness. i could be engaged when they get back. creepy.

missionary number two is chris johansson.

i met him at efy four years ago. him and i weren't that close at first, but we so happened to be at the same efy sessions four years in a row. we obviously bacame really close after that. you could call him my big brother. he acts like it anyways. he's always been there to protect me from broken hearts and boys. i can tell him anything and he listens to every word. his kind words and dominate sarcasm are always there to cheer me up.

he wasn't always mission-bound. during the four years we knew each other, he made friends that weren't the best and caused him to made wrong decisions. he eventually noticed that what he was doing was not going to make him happy and he changed his ways. he was called to the dallas, texas mission. he reports to the mtc wednesday. he was set apart friday night.

i'm so proud of him. you're going to be a great missionary. i love you chris. i'll see you in two years.