bachelorette. croatia.

just as most other bloggers, i'm a tad obsessed with the bachelorette. i was disappointed in ben's season and i called ashley's from the beginning. emily's season, however, continues to keep me guessing. i never know who's going home and i really don't want any of them to leave.

ryan. i absolutely hated him. he was so full of himself and the fact that he continually called emily his "trophy wife" rubbed me the wrong way. that is not the kind of thing you say to someone you're trying to be engaged to. too bad he's ridiculously good-looking. good job, emily. you have made the right decision.

arie. i bet you he wins. i want him to win. he and emily are so cute together and they just kiss all the time. they're made for each other. i hope the whole thing about him dating the producer doesn't make emily send him home. i don't think she would.

jef. top three. definitely. he's so charming and sweet and always says the right things. "she's the kind of girl people write novels about" oh dear me. you are perfect. i vote him for the next bachelor. and i want to be on that season. :)

sean. he really didn't interest me until this croatia adventure. he's super sweet and definitely a real winner. top three. for sure. i vote him for the next bachelor if jef doesn't do it.

this is definitely my favorite bachelor/bachelorette season.

word vomit.

my english teacher once had us write a whole essay consisting of word vomit. if you don't know the concept of word vomit, this is it-writing whats running through your mind. punctuation, spelling, and sentence fluency don't matter. just get everything out. so, ms prosser, i'm using your word vomit in real life. this is just going to be about how i feel. what i'm thinking. and what i want. with no correct grammar.

i legitimately just love you. your kindness and hint of sarcasm make me want to lean in to kiss you. never have i ever had such strong feelings for a boy before. i just want to be with you all the time. i want you to love me. i'd do anything to have you. i can love you better than anyone else ever could. you mean so much to me and i hope you are happy. i'll sit by the phone and wait for your call. even if it is just to say hi and catch up. it's been a while since we've talked.

do you think about me as much as i think about you? do i ever cross your mind? have you ever picked up the phone, only to put it back down again? what are you thinking? i don't know what to think or what to do. i've never played this game before and i don't know the rules. all i know is that i want you. i want to love you.

i wish you were thinking about me. sometimes i pick up my phone and put it back down. i hope i cross your mind. psych is waiting. i'm waiting. i just want you to love me.

i won't give up.